Overwhelming feeling of contradiction

It seems these things (blogs) are self-serving and ego-centric. With that said, I'm going to do what every good blogger does, and talk about myself.

I had an overwhelming feeling of contradiction tonight. Spring Break is supposed to be a break from school and time for relief. That was quite the contrary. I did have a break from school and life, but the time I spent on my break was devoted to me reflecting on my actions of the last month and how selfish I've been. Not only that, but I haven't been myself. I can try to find an excuse, but I can't.

In the most un-depressed way possible, I feel like trash. I don't know what I've done to catalyze these emotions and thoughts, but my ways become more errant with each day.

And I apologize those who read and find my writings to be rather bleak, but it seems everytime I write, it seems to be in the middle of an intense emotion. I'll try to fix that.